Cece's Vortex

I always fell short of greatest.  One step behind hurts a lot more than completely missing the mark.  But that's just me.  It's like I was never good enough...  Confronting my demons in this time of introspection.  But my quality time just seems to be numbing my emotions. Wake up a corpse, tire from nothing and ask if there's a nutritional malfunction...  And the cycle continues...  My mind is running wild like a wildfire.  Earth is at a standstill but I'm like a windmill... going wherever the wind blows, And hoping for the best, but the wind is giving me anxiety.  I am not an addict.  The mind is my prison... It craves that which I shouldn't.  And once in a while, I allow it to pull me in... Until next time, à tout à l'heure.💋 Please read, +1, comment your thoughts and don't forget to share.🌼

Jeremiah 29:11 I know your plans for me are never meant to hurt me If I only listen, I will save myself the trouble of paying for my bad decisions Like Adam and Eve, I want forbidden fruit  Because yes of course, it does look good  But for future reference, I write this now... Remind me to not fear confrontation,  To get mad when my peace is fought with,  To fight back when my integrity is questionable, To keep the sanctity of my character, And to LISTEN... Lord may I listen to you.  Last of all, Forgive my discrepancies. Like a fool I’ve made promises from  letting my feelings cause me to speak too soon... My words have made me sin... Like Paul of Romans 7 , i sit here and quote- "4 So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin.   15  I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.   16  But if I know

I am stuck in a conundrum or a quandary (if you'd like to call it that. Whatever floats your goat). So, I've heard these words quite a lot from Naruto and they always ring in my head... And before I quote him, I'd just like to mention that not all my blog posts are going to be about something from Naruto or whatever. It just happens that I find a lot I can relate to from this anime. Anyway,    n ow  that that's  out of the way ; "Real strength is not what you have when fighting for only yourself.   When you have something special that you want to protect, only then can you become truly strong!" You see, there are 2 sides to this quote & I'm not sure which one to choose because I believe that; If you have no one to protect in battle, then can you truly fight all out, because at the end of the day there are no  grave repercussions for anyone but yourself. On the other hand, I also do believe that when you have someone to protect, you do get stron

So, lately I've been binge watching Naruto  and it just got me thinking... Every rival the Leaf Village faces, like the Akatsuki and Obito, all began battles in an effort to destroy the village and remake it into the idea of peace that they envisioned... And I thought to myself that even if the world did restart, we are humans, therefore, there would be war nonetheless.  " Just by living, people hurt others without even realizing it. So long as humanity exists, hate will also exist. There is no peace in this cursed world. War is just a crime paid for by the pain of the defeated... Religion, ideology, resources, land, spite, love or just because… No matter how pathetic the reason, it’s enough to start war. War will never cease to exist… reasons can be thought up after the fact… Human nature pursues strife."; Masashi Kishimoto "  In the words of Pain (about him destroying the village):  " It will give birth to short period of peace within this endless chai